Peaceful Raging


 

I’ve tried to see everything as being a part of god—everything, including myself.

Yet, like Prometheus, I sometimes rage at god—at this life.  I feel bound to rock.  I rage at the things of this life, at the very things I try to see as god.

I work to be more accepting, more at peace.  But this Prometheus aspect too often overwhelms me.  In such moments, I am lost—my better self is lost.

That raging Prometheus aspect is in pain.  I would like to heal that pain.

However…

…I’ve also found something positive in that rage, in that frustration.  There’s a driving force in that anger.  It can drive me in many good ways…

It can drive me to change; it can drive me to achieve.  It can drive me to work against injustice.

But I know it can also drive me to hell.

So how do I resolve this conflict?—this conflict between the part of me that wants to rage and the part that wants to feel at peace?

It’s an important question, a question not only for me, but for our new mythology…

…because I believe I share this basic conflict with the rest of the world.

Well, perhaps I could rage part of the time, then take periodic breaks to sit by the waterfall and be at rest.

But would those breaks be enough?  After all that raging, I might be sitting there in guilt—if not exhaustion.

I’ve decided on a different plan…

…an audacious plan…

…a hope for dreamers…

…or maybe an idea for fools:

What if I could achieve some degree of peace even as I rage?  What if I can catch myself before being completely overwhelmed by Prometheus…

…so that I stand somewhat outside the rage, even as I rage?  Maybe then I could maintain the drive of the rage, without losing my better angel.

Yes, I know this tactic would require steady awareness.  I’d have to be able to stand on the line without going over the line.  I’d probably lose more times than I’d win.  But I know it’s possible, because I’ve done it before—though rarely, very rarely.

In any case, I see no better alternative.  Even if I became a hermit, I’d still have to live in this world.

Every single person on the planet must deal with injustice, in one form or another.  I want to deal with injustice, and when prompted by my better angel, do what I can to change an unjust situation.  But while doing the good work, I don’t want to be eating my own heart and liver.
 

PROMETHEUS OF THE EAST

Bound
to this cliff rock
I curse
an unseen god

yet at this waterfall
I also praise all
the drops of god
I see.

© 2011, Michael R. Patton
dreaming steps

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About Michael Patton

I am a poet, novelist, essayist, cartoonist, graphic artist, peace miller, new mythologist, and fledgling world citizen.... I grew up in Northwest Arkansas and have lived and worked all over the United States.... I'm self-taught, for the most part--which is like searching for the right door in the dark. It's an on-going process.... I don't want to write MY story, I want OUR story, so that's what I'm studying: the human story: past, present, future, in its many aspects--including the spiritual. I'm proceeding at a slow crawl.... I don't see the inner world and outer world as separate. By learning about myself, I learn about others, I learn about my world.... Conversely, as I struggle to understand what I see OUT THERE, I learn about myself.... But to be clear: I don't claim any special understanding. I'm still purblind, still only half-awake.... After frustrating experience with the publisher of my first novel, I've published on my own, beginning with e-books, with plans to move into print and audio. Even video.... Along with a second novel, I've now published eight books of poetry. Each poetry book focuses on a theme. For instance, the collection GLORIOUS TEDIOUS TRANSFORMATION is about the slow difficult wonderful process of change.... In that book, as with all my work, I try to be accessible to a general audience, while also striving to achieve a certain literary quality.
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