Double, double toil and trouble
Fire burn and cauldron bubble!
— from Macbeth
At the beginning of a new year, I am troubled, deeply troubled, by all the trouble I hear and see on the daily news. I worry that today’s troubles will indeed be doubled tomorrow.
As I growl and hiss at “those idiots” in the news, I may feel I can’t do much to change the worst of what I see.
But before I go into a full-fledged fit, I’ll remind myself:
“Okay, maybe your power is limited, but you can help the world by working to become a better person.”
But what does that mean? How do I work to become a better person? Well, basically it goes like this…
I try to see my flaws instead of projecting them onto “the other”…Then I work on fixing those flaws, knowing real change can only happen slowly…
I try to deal with my inner conflict…I try to go below my anger and deal with the pain that drives that anger…
I try to accept the grief that comes with being a human being. I know if I don’t, the grief may sneak up and pull me under.
That’s pretty much it—what I do. Maybe you noticed how the word “try” kept popping up. Yeah, it’s a real struggle.
But to be honest, sometimes I don’t really try that hard—or try hard enough.
But though I often lapse, I never give up. And I never will. I won’t because I want to feel I’m doing a little something to benefit our world.
Of course, I also try for my own benefit. Over time, I’ve realized the obvious: as I slowly become more of the person I want to be, I actually feel better. Emotionally, physically. In spirit.
Which I guess is another way of saying: I feel stronger. I’m becoming stronger.
Which is needed, because as Bette Davis said in All About Eve:
It’s going to be a bumpy night!
And the only one who can fasten my seat belt is me.
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